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maciej łebkowski
There have been some changes in my life lately. Some significant changes. When there`s somethin important going on in your life you become to think about the way you live, about what`s important, about what values do you believe in. And today I want to share my thoughts with others.
Before I begin I`d like to explain one thing. Why am I writing this in english? Especially that cant use this language as fluent as it would be desirable. Eversince I remember I like to use that language. When I was a little child I used to sit in my room for hours and imagine I were someone else, someone famous - and then I tried to speak in english. Of course it was impossible for me to know the language good enough, nevertheless it was a lot of fun. Then, when I grew older, when I had a bad day I tried to lock myself inside some imagined world, very often by forgetting the reality - in which case not using my mother language was very helpful. So excuse me for my mistakes, and try to focus on the meritum.
I have just seen "The exorcism of Emili Rose". The film nbw spoke about lately. Before I read his review I had no idea what the film was mentioned to show. It was just another thriller for me. Was I scared while watching it? Not at all, not a single second. Am I pleased with that? No, not in any case. What the film brought to me was...
Everything we do depends on us, and only us. This is really an unpleasant matter - for me, and I`m sure not only for me. Ok, but where did those sharp thoughts came out from, you ask? Dunno really. "The exorcism..." touched a very different topic: can we, may we and should we believe in daemons? Do they exist, and what influence do they have on our lives? Or... should I say: how much do we allow deamons to contol our thoughts and our lives?
I think that is my goal. Thats some next stage in my life, that must not necessarily have influence on my concrete plans. What I realized is... Everyone may have bad days and good days. Feel good, feel needed, feel left alone, feel without any hope. May we assume, that some higher forces take control of us? God - or deamon. We may... Must we obey them? Why should we? Why can`t we choose?
A lot of questions but no answers. There are no objective answers. It`s up to you and your faith what will you believe in. I`d like to believe in God, his power and love he offers. I believe, that I am able to refuse any temptations from the devil. I believe that depends only on me and I can refuse everything I believe is wrong. If that is a right path, I`ll try to do whatever it takes, to stay on that path. If it isn`t, if we can not choose our faith - why not changing it? If I can`t refuse the devilish, that wont stop me from trying.
Everyone has his own fate. When you work on your fate it becomes stronger - and that some time it may guide you, and save you. Decide about your life. Remember, that it is not only what you think defines you, it is also what you do.
I believe in that, and everytime I have a doubt, my faith tells me what to do.
